For the last couple months I have been in writing hiding.  I have a personal journal that I carry around constantly and I try and update it with my daily life.  For the most part I am pretty good at it, but lately I have not had much motivation.  I suppose this entry is for personal reasons, I just want to get back into the swing of things.

I have always secretly wanted to be a writer.  Not an editor who, for a living, has to pick through someone else’s work, not a journalist who reports problems that they are most likely and quite frankly bored by.  Just a writer, I’m not exactly sure what that means for me considering I am going to college for Organizational Leadership and Supervision, and have been for the last two years.  Basically with this OLS degree, I could do numerous things with, like work in HR, organize events, or just work managerial jobs in general .  Truly the only reason why I am going to college for that instead of something in English or writing is because I would want to write in my free time, with my own blog and no boundaries.

It’s hard to have goals that you are scared to reach for.  I am getting that degree strictly as a backup, a safety net to fall into in case my plans for writing don’t work out the way I would like for them too.  I don’t even know what I would write about, what topic I would want to pursue and cover for the rest of my life.  I feel like the only thing I’m certain of is that I love to write, and I’m not sure if that’s enough.  I know it takes dedication and it’s a slow process, but If i don’t even know what direction to go in, what do I do?

Lately I have been so unsure of my future and what decisions I should be making now in order to live the life I want to live when I’m older.  I figure I can blog and write in my free time and use the degree to get a job while I do what I love on the side.  I just hope that my brain can sort some things out for me in the near future.  Waiting around to find out what the future holds is pathetic and I need to quit acting like everything will just unfold for me.  Hard work leads to high rewards, I need to work hard on my writing in order to get anywhere with it.  I just need a direction to go now.

Wish me luck!


7 thoughts on “MESSAGE 17

  1. Hi Madison, firstly thank you for your comment on my blog. I’d like to try and a give a little advice, do you what you want to do in the boundaries of your life. That may sound like a cope out but I think it’s true. Be a writer, if that’s what you want to be and if your lucky (yip that’s apart of life too) and work hard at it you could be a writer. On the other hand I’m a total stranger feel free to ignore everything I’ve said lol. Good luck !!

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    1. Just wanted to say how happy I am to hear that you are still writing. I miss getting notes from you back in the day. You always knew how to cheer me up. You have always been an amazing writer & I truly hope you continue to write. You pop into my head often. & I wish things didn’t end so badly. It still hurts not having you in my life because I thought you would be a friend for a life time. I hope things are going great because you deserve an endless amount of happiness Maddy

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      1. please let me know who you are and we can get together. your words mean the world to me and they truly mean so much, you really have no idea. thank so much for messaging me, I appreciate you ♥️


  2. I’m in my thirties and I am still struggling to figure out just who it is I am exactly. I’m like you . I know pieces of what I want to become , but I’m not sure how they will all fit together. I guess only time will tell. Timing is everything and I believe when all the pieces are mean’t to come together they will for you and hopefully myself as well. Keep writing 🙂

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    1. I appologize for just now reaponding to your reply on my post because I really appreciate the encouragement. I dont think that anyone really knows what the hell they are doing, but hey, at least we know we want to be doing something right? That’s a step!

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